Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in sugiwugi's LiveJournal:

Friday, May 12th, 2006
2:54 pm	We Do Not Lose Heart so we fix our eyes not on what is seen. but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal    2 CORINTHIANS 4:18:1.16) Seldom does a writer open his heart and reveal his soul, yet there are times when individuals open the window shades and let you see within. I think of the fourth chapter of 2 Corinthians, which some have called the : Heart of Paul." here paul describes the difficult side of his work. Twoce he says. "therefore...we do not lose heart" (2 Corinthians 4:1,16). the word Paul used is found three times in the New Testament, including in his letter to the Ephesians, where it is translated "to be discouraged." Paul had learned something that we need to learn today, something that's pften missing in our lives. He learned that the only way to survive the battles of life is a fresh encounter with God's mercy and help. He also learned to stay focused on what really mattered - "not on what is seen but on what is unseen" (2 Corinthians 4:18). Current Mood: refreshed (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
10:33 am	buming at the araneta's okay... im here buming lang sa family room ng mga araneta.. hehe waiting for the lovely girls outside cause they have review class..wahhh hahaha i feel old nga eh .. lalang just wanna share :) heehee :) anyhee,, anyhoo... im watchng "INTO THE BLUE" right now while typing :) hahah sobrang halata ba na kinakareer ko na ang summer ko kse next next week school na naman :( aawwwwrrr!!!! but im excited to meet my new classmates and i wanna learn new stuff na.. hehehe interesting subjects na eh :) pero sana mag second term na.. wahahaha para naman majors nako hehe mas heavy duty work na pero atleast exciting siya diba?! :) haarrrdiharhar :) wala lang :) in a few hours ako naman mag cclass.. haha finally lecture nalang and makukuha ko na din lisensya ko.. wahhh i can drive on my own na.. yun yon eh! :) woohooo!!! sana payagn si rapha na samahan ako sa lecture.. para naman hindi ako ma bore diba?! arr... i hate being alone sumwer na im not sanay ... or smething like that :D yardayarda!! okay whats in my head right now?! hhmmm... wait lang hahah biglang pumasok sa room si Cj hahah ang cute hs playing hs little game thing again.. aww... if maging bored pa ako il ask if i could play with himna.. haha :) its fun din!!! :) anuhoo.. back to what i was saying.. hmmm welll im thinking if i should take a bath na or wait for rapha.. hehehe lalang pag summer minsan nakaka tamad maligo kse hindi ka pa naman nag papawis and mabaho.. gets?! pero arr.. i have to din.. pero later na :) yay! :D hhmm.. what to do? what to do? or i can get my cam and ake some pictures diba? haha ya know naman navanity is a must.. haha joke! :) grabe ang tagal matapos ng movie and na tetempt na talaga ako i ask si Cj hahaha pero what the heck diba?! whatever nalang :) hehehe games here we come:) hahaha :) (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 6th, 2006
12:55 am	my FRIDAY hmmm.. i was infron of the TV and the computer almost the whole afternoon..shux thats what you call "Buhay BUM" heehee.. oh well atleast i was doing something productive.. not like any other bum people :) hayy... and good thing narin cause thanks to my good good friend Gino Ong i got sick... arrr!! so i had to stay bum.. to rest naman diba?! Thank God for internet and cable i survived the boring afternoon.. hehehe :) went to Soul Stop and wow.. easy lang sa message ... super uber nice :) thanks to Kuya Ryan! :) sapol lang talaga siya eh.. and God spoke to me.. YUN YON EH!! :) next time bring notebook for note taking.. arr!!! anyhoo anyhee.... finally nag meet na kme ng D12 and waahhh... iyakan mode ba ito?! aw... but it was sooo fun and funny :) Current Mood: giggly (Comment on this)
Friday, May 5th, 2006
12:18 pm	been trying to feel numb about the thngs i see, hear and feel. im tired of hiding all the love i feel for you... i tired of hurting because you dont feel the slightest love i have been giving you.. why? why do you have to be soo numb and blind not to see all of this?! why are you holding back... if you dont care say it to my face stop making me guess... its slowly killing me.. STOP please STOP!!!! you promised you'll always be there for me.. but now i need sombody to hold on to and cry my heart out your not here to be my crying shoulder...where am i gonna position my self now? i mean its really confusing ...  funny... i never thought i would get over this feeling of being confused.. maybe God just wanted me to realize that everything i was feeling at that time has a purpose for my future.. YUN YON EH!! :) now im fine... living my life just like any other teenage girl.. having fun with her family and friends.. giving all her best and love to God. but you know naman na not all is fun.. i also had to go through some tough times... holding back all the pain cause for i while i thought i lost my place in somehing i was attatched to.. something or you can someone (pero dalawa sila haha labo na mehn!) i thought i was gonna break down and cry (ya know like the song) but no i didnt... the opposite happened.. arrr... whenever tears would start to fall down my cheeks.. i would remind myself to be strong and stop being a baby... so there i showed the people around me that i was okay and perfect and happy but deep inside you'll see how hurt i am, rejeceted and all the other negative feelings you can fell was hidnidng in the dark spot inisde of me. God didnt allow me naman to stay like that forever.. he opened a new door for me naman... it changed me.. yea but the dark spot was still inside of me.. i was still afraid to let it go .. a big no no for me! :( for a while it stayed that way... i loved locking myself inside my room crying.. hiding from reality.. from the world outside. i made my room my darkness place.. i would cry and cry but when its time to go out i would leave everything there and be fake to the people around me.  hmm.. wait lang il continue nalang later im hungry na eh... ui minsan lang akong maguto.. haha :) yun yon eh! hehehe wow huwata boring and painful day.. ahhh!! Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
2:45 am	haha it was my mom's birthday yesterday (since morning na) and it wasnt how i wanted to make the day special for her but God was sooo good that blessing came nalang and sunod sunod siya...welll except for my scary experience sa food court pero heheh im soo happy cause my mom had soo much fun today with her small dinner thing with ger Dgroup.. heheh she was able to spend her time with her Dgroup me naman with my 2 bestfriends.. yun yon eh!! it was sooo fun kahit nag ka tulugan na kme at nag kakak labuan na sa kakatawa (which is a good thing naman diba?! :) GOD IS SOO GOOD! :)  "MR. WONKA im a science teacher and there is no such thing as an umpalumpa" hahah benta lines for the night... and may dakilang name for Gino CHIPPY... hmmm bakit kaya?! hahaha sabi naman niya kse i like chippy yung chips.. hahaha WRONG ks eang chippy niya the .. kse... hehehe :) huwat fun night... soo memorable :) haha sana i can post pictures but..heller taga bundok ako hindi ko alam kung pano... oh well... meybe next time il learn hehe :) 3:15 in the morning and i still cant sleep... arr i dont know why?! haayy... i watched the spoiler the the final season of one tree hill... shux the story kinda confused me again... ahhh whatsup with the mix up? sino ba talaga at kanino and dakila kong tanong.. huwat is happening to them.. haha so halatang affected ako sa lahat ng ngyayari ... im such an adic na noh! i love watching it... haha sige siyempre kwento lang ako ng kwento diba? yan ang nagagawa ng bore eh... mapapa willy wonka nanaman ako kaya lang corny kse wala partner ko sa line eh. :( aw... missing it. i just thought about life ...asin now lang and na realize ko na Gof really works in weird but timing times.. hehe asteeg nga eh!! waahhhh....  okay i kinda fell asleep for a minute hahah sige finally makaka tulog na ako hehe yeahoo... yun yon eh!!! goodnight people of the world. i loveyou and mwah mwah!!! Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
12:49 am	scarry!!! i had an unsuaul start kse eh.. hmmm i went to the food court of St. Fran to eat with sila Gino and Rj... normally we would blab about what food we want or what food w can share pero kanina we were all quiet.. we went our separate ways.. i bought here they bought there something like that..lalala (singing) anyhoo... while eating were soo quiet and sobrang unusual yun kse everytime were together its laightrip bonding thing eh.. yah know?! the sucky part pa is they had to leave me agad kse may training pa sila sa LSDC and mag MRT pa sila.. so they asked me if they could go ahead kse they dont want to be late for their traning.. stupid me i said yes naman ..sarap ng food ko eh so i decided to stay and finish it.. so they left na.. after a few minutes (lang ah) two guys sat sa table where i was sitting and the guy beside inakbayan pa niya yung chair ko and asked "Ms. okay lang bang maki upo kme" with that scary look ah... parang time stoped and i didnt know what to do or what to say so i looked at my food nalang ulit... tas they guy beside me lumapit pa and asked me the same question... ahhhh esay lang sa creapy!!! at that time i wanted to cry na talaga cause it was so scary and mag isa pa naman ako nun.. shux!!! anyhoo... i got my stuff na.. and when i was about to stand u and leave they asked me " oh ms. bat aalis kana?" with his scary tone na mejo galit pa...wahhh.... umalis nalang ako agad!! i was sooo scared... i went back kala laura with my shocked face.. tas i told them what happend... yun nag pray kme para ma at peace nako.. arrr huwata scary lunch time.. hahaha :) but that was no joke!! i got scared lalo nung nakita super dami pang ibang tables na available.. arrr!!! some GUYs talaga are so KADIRI or arrrr... i dont know the word pero... basta yun!!! arrr and i wasnt ever half finished with my food... minsan na nga lang ako magutom and kumain tas ganun pa mngyayari... how anoying!!!!!!! Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
12:27 am	Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
12:09 am	OCTOBER 9, 2004 "i cant stop falling inlove with you, i'll never stop falling inlove with you" hhmm.whata memorable line from BETTER THAN LIFE. hehe well.. at that time i was so laxed with the thought of having him.. i didnt care about anyother thing or person or waaatever! maybe at that time the only thing i thought about was the "us" thing.. damn it! i was that blind na i never gave time to just check things out... see if things will work out...you know!?!! we realized at the end that skipping the friendship part was a big mistake! aarr..>;( honestly.. i never really thought about it while we were together... i thought we were ready.. heehee we thouht we were ready. mehn.. we were wrong BIG TIME! hehe :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 11th, 2004
12:36 am	poem “I never knew that is was possible to love someone so deeply as I have come to love you. In just a short while I will get to hold you in my arms. That day cannot come soon enough for me. I miss you terribly and long to be with you always. However, just knowing you're there provides me such peace and security. Because these feelings are so intense and passionate they are overflowing. Unconditional and forever will be my love for you. Everyday I think of you more and more and I want you to be here with me so much it hurts. I don't think it's fair to know I have found the person who can make me happy, and the person I feel is so perfect for me, and not be able to be there with you. It makes me happy to know you have these strong feelings for me too, but sad to have you so far away and not be able to reach out and touch you, and when that day finally comes that I know we can be together I know I will have experienced the feeling of true love, and complete and perfect happiness. Your love means the world to me. I am really proud to be able to call you my Baby.” aaww... its sch a lovely poem!! hahaha sobrang sakto lang.. mwah!! mwah!!! (Comment on this)
Friday, April 2nd, 2004
11:55 pm	i hate this!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO PISSED!! GRRR.... Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: officially missing you - tamia (grr... yak! i dnt miss you!) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 22nd, 2004
2:11 am	Love ise patient and kind; love is not jealous, or conceited. or proud; love is not ill - mannered, or selfish, or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs;  love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. love never gives up" its faith, hope and patience never fail.    (1 corithians 13:4-7)   *love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.* ...its 2:30 am and im still infront of the computer..hhmm.. isint that nice! hehehe im not yet even finished packing my stuff for FONTANA and im here typing some poems and all that. hay... well what can i say..hhmm let me think of what to say..........................................................hhmm......................(im still thinking)................well i miss this uhum.. and for the past few days he's the only person that pops into my head specialy uhum....when uhum..uhum..uhumm...=) im sorry..evrythings so confusing lang talaga eh?!! i just dont know what to dao or how to react with the things that are happening right now =( why cant it be just normal?...i miss you so much ...hhmm...grabe alota things are in my head right now and i just cant find the perfect words to describe wat im feeling...aaarrghh...hehehe baka im antok lang cge night   Current Mood: rejected Current Music: rainbow - south border, you - athena cage (Comment on this)
1:36 am	what boredom can do.....*wink* FOR  MY FRIENDS "LET ME LEAN ON YOU" keep your eyes ypon me, keep me in your sight. Help me down the crooked road, Lead me to the light. The road I'm on is dark I'm not sure i know the way, but with you beside me i know i will not stray. Protect me from the world I'm in Im certain we'll make it through, Let me hold your hand Let me lean on you. *True friends multiplies the goodin life and divides its evils. strive to have friends, for live without friends is like life on a desert island. to find one real friend in a lifetime is good fortune; to keep him is a blessing* "YOU TELL ON YOURSELF" you tell on yourself by the friends you seek, by the manner in which you speak, by the way you employ leisure time, by the use you make of peso or coin.   you tell what are by the things you wear, by the spirit in your burdens you bear, by the kind of things at which you laugh, by the records you play on the phonograph.   you tell what are by the way you walk, by the things of which you delight to talk, by the manner in which you bear defeat, by so simple a thing as how you eat.   by the books you choose from the well-filled shelf; in these ways and more. you tell on yourself; so there's really no particle of sense in an effort to keep up a false pretense.     Current Mood: senti Current Music: umagang kay ganda - noisy neighbors (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
7:21 pm	what a BAD day!!!!!! This day is so so so so pangit!!!!! well...i woke up just i time...i took a bath in time and i left in time na makadating ako skul ng 8:30. YEHEY...hndi ako late....=) our school had mass..and everybody was in a bad mood including me =( my skirt got punit in the side and the whole day i felt so uncomfortable and really uneasy..=( tas i failed this kakaasar na exam =( wwwaaahhhh...i hate this day!!!! tapos we had a VTR in school..e im miss hyper kaya i love those thingys pero this day sucks lang tlga kaya habang VTR badtrip ako =( ANG PANGIT GRABE!!!! AAARRGG..... lang tlga!!! anyway...so ta[pos na school...hehehe we wnt to theater mall lalang we ate food (duh!!!!) tapos i went shopping for _________ agen!!! aaaahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....gastos agen..wel its for me pero lam mo yon its just anoying!!!!! hay the type of day na lahat ng pangit ngyayari and lahat ng tao badtrip!!!! pangit pangit day!!!!!! hay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well...i still thank god for this day.. hehehe =) anyway....you all take care!! mwah!!!! GOD BLESS!!!! take cre!!! Current Mood: depressed Current Music: brand new day - forty foot echo (Comment on this)
Monday, February 2nd, 2004
6:02 pm	LSS with the song "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" "...dandaran dan dan...HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you...HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you...." WOW!!! its kinda weird noh??? na the happy birthday song would be the last song stuck in your head?? hhmm...well that means im a really weird girl!!! whahahahahhahaha!!!!! ------> my friends think its crazy coz evrytime the teacher enters the class i would sing with all my heart the HAPPY BIRTHDAY song (hihihi sugi laughing out loud with tears in her eye) anyway...i also sing the same song when the whole class is quiet specialy when im in the HYPER MODE.. which is evryday hahahahahaha =) i feel so HAPPY....im feeling so HAPPY.. im gona be HAPPY...blah blah blah!!! hihihi (sugi acting weird) weirdness noh?!?!?!? hihihi =) *winks* just wanna inform you na i ate chocolate today thats why im cating so hyper kahit pag nag ttype lang waaahahahahahhaha =) should i not or should i yes hehehe joke that sounds wrong??!!! waaahahahahah STOP ME PLS!!!!! lalng =) well..anyways...its fun to be in the HYPER MODE =) specialy when your at home doing nothing...ryt? *winks* too bad i still dnt know how to post pictures hehehe sana i posted my hyper pics =) hyper pics hehehe me jumping around and around lang...looking all crazed up!!! siguro if someone saw me na hindi ako kilala hehehe they'l think na i escaped from the mental hospital.. heheh joke lang =) im just hyper thats why im like this....=) evrybody S M I L E!!!!!! well..im sorry guys but i have to end this ka hyperan na =( hehehe you all take care ok??!!! and pray before you sleep!!!! DNT FORGET YOUr QUIET TIME hehehehe spend one percent of your time with the LORD!!! i love you all...*smoochiez* whahahahaha...hahaha...today is a happy daw!!! bye!!!! take care!!! GODBLESS you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: happy Current Music: happy birthday - ???? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:10 pm	im only human... ...Whenever i sin, i strat feeling really bad about myself. i feel like if i could just get closer to god, i could get rid of sin for good. But when i read about peter and the way he messed up, i realize that no matter how close we are to God, we're all still sinners. Peter spent a lot of time with jesus. He was one of jesus' closest friends. He even promised jesus he'd stick with him no matter how tough things got. But when someone put Peter to the test and accused him of being one of jesus' friends, peter acted like he'd never heard of jesus. Peter broke his promise. We all break promises to jesus. we give in to peer pressure and act like we're not christians. Sometimes we're ashamed of knowing jesus, just like peter was. We sin for the same reason Peter sinned. We're Human. But God created us. He knows everything we do even before we do it. So we don't have to try to hide from God when we do something wrong. We can tell him anything and confess all our sins. We can ask him to help us turn away from sin and do what he wants us to do. (Comment on this)
11:57 am	turning from GOD ..... it takes commitment and strength to follow God. the world pressures us to ignore our commitment to God. and somtimes we give in to the pressure and let our commitment slide. there was a time when i turned away from God. i thought i'd be able to do what i wanted instead of being "trapped" by all God's rules. but i ended up really unhappy and feeling horrible. finally,a good friend asked me why i ahd turned from God. when i thought about it, i realized i reallu didn't know why. There wa no reason for me to live apart from God. Nothing i had experienced was better than the life i had with God. Yes, it is challenging to be a christian. But i know there's nothing out in the world that's better than my relationship with God. there's nothing better than the joy i have when i'm growing in my faith and trying to live for him. read JOHN 6:60-69 waaahhh..ganda lang nung quiet time ko..hehehe =) sharing lang ah... just this sturday alot of tennagers ommited to be a JZONER for god!! ang galing ang cute lang eh!!! i commited to God that i would commited evrything to him..every steo i take...every move i make is all for him!!!! i love you GOD!!!!!!! *mwah* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 23rd, 2004
12:38 am	poems fromt he heart *-@--"YOU"--@-* "..i shudv said NO at the begining but there was nothing i can do..i was so into you. words have been popping in my head 'what if this' and 'what if that' 'what if evrythings a lie??' i dont know what to say..i dont know what to do scary as it seems...but i think im falling.. falling for you. These arent lies, these arent thoughts, these are deep words straight from the heart. i know its you..only you who can turn my world into something new.." aha..at last my second entry =) well another "GB" thing..i think??? well its a poem about a guy (DUH!!!!!!) who i thought na kulas..but in the end he was the one who gave life a new mean.. meaning orayt yung life HAHAHAHAH!!! but now i can say that im a totally different person...a person with a new meaning of life. Life with the LORD!!!! COOL-NESS!!! hihihihi its 1:00 in the morning and i still have exams tom. hehehe lalang =) i love this day... I LOVE ______ *wink* you know who you are hehehe *wink* *smoochiez to all of you* GODBLESS!!!! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 14th, 2004
8:42 pm	hehehe "GB" thingy... THINK: he does not make the world go round he is only a part of me he is not the best thing in my life he is not what feeds my soul he is not happiness he is not my dream come true he is not life he is not my focus he is not what keeps me alive he is not my sanity i don't need him to survive i lost my heart to him that day... i am a better person ..REALIZE. ..but the world looks better noe that he's in my life. ..but he is that part that makes me feel complete. ..but he makes the best out of evreything else. ..but with him i am in content. ..but he is the reason being. ..because i never dreamt of having him, i was only fortunate and blessed enough to have been given the chance of meeting HIM. ..but he showed me the real essence of it. ..but he keeps me grounded and sane. ..but he makes living worthwhile ..because the moment i set eyes on his, i went crazy over him. ..but i want him in my life. ..but gained a world or wonder and happiness i never imagined having, and in exchange for my heartbeat was unconditional love. ..and he is my living proof REFLECT ON THAT!!!!!!! its so astig!!! hehehe hehe lalang got this from the internet... lalang got so amused coz the words are so deep..serious. *pwede na cya pang "GB" hihihi lalang =) Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)